Monday, December 22, 2008

December 21st, 2004

This is a picture of my first car. You probably cannot tell by looking at this picture that it is a 2001 Oldsmobile Alero...I got it July 29th, 2003... on December 21st, 2004... I was on my way to work and was hit head on by a semi. He crossed over the yellow lines on a two way highway with only 2 lanes, one going south, one north. I was the driver going south...he swerved and just clipped my front end, but the trailer continued to roll over my car while I was in it. My feet went through the firewall, and the engine was laying on both of my legs. I had no idea what happened. I just knew that I was on my way to work. I had no idea of the details, these are just things I was told after the accident occured while I was recovering in the hospital. I'm very lucky to be alive... I have 9 screws and 2 metal plates in my right leg because of this accident. I'm thankful for everyday that I have to talk about it. It's hard to believe that 4 years ago, I could have been dead. It is still a mystery to me and everyone else how I survived. I use this picture as a constant reminder that I'm here for a reason, and that even though things get tough and I throw my tantrums thinking I'm not going to make it through... that the struggle is well worth the outcome of success when it's over because God put my on this earth for a reason, and he intended for me to stay and do something great. At least that is what I believe!!

So, December 16th was my 23rd Birthday! :) My mom asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I told her I wanted a tattoo on my right foot with the phrase "Tomorrow's Never Promised" Heres the pic of it! I absolutely love it. It is also a reminder to live everyday at my best because for whatever the reason may be, I may not live to see tomorrow... (You can also see the scar going up my leg from the ankle where they put the screws and metal plates.

My Birthday was a little bit difficult... I thought about Josh and cried. He turned 23 in May, so a part of this tattoo was meant for him too. I still miss him so much... the holidays are so hard to get through without him. I understand that death is apart of life, but I will never until my last dying breath understand why God had to take him of all the people in this world why it was him... Some days are easy, and some days are hard to get through. The 20th of December was the 5 month anniversary of his death, and these last few days as it gets closer to christmas are hard to get through. I find myself remiscing of all the childhood memories. I hope my brothers ok... he was like an older brother to mike and i... but mike hides his feelings a whole lot better than I do.
I had planned to go home for the holidays, but on a positive note, I got the job at David's Bridal that I had applied for. I've been going there and doing training, and it is so much fun! I really enjoy it! I know brides are demanding but I love it so much more than waiting tables at Applebees!! and it's so exciting to see all these excited girls so happy to get married. I'll be glad when my training is over and I can really start working one on one with the brides... right now I'm just observing and going over client/consultant relationships and etiquette and selling techniques, but I love it! Once I get the full hang of it, I will probably only work 1 day a week at Applebees, and work 3-4 days at Davids Bridal. At least this way, I can get a check every 2 weeks, and still work one night a week serving tables and have some cash on me. We'll see how that goes. Applebees will probably be upset when I do this, but I have to make moves for me... It's my life, not theirs.
Well, I just wanted to give a little update, and share a few things. Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas if I'm not by to post before then...
Merry Christmas!


Tawnya said...

You are supposedto be here for somethng special!! I am sorry about Josh, I can relate to the feelings that you have. I have them as well. I am happy that you got the job that you wanted!!! Merry Chrismas to you and may we both have a better New Year!!

Big Mark 243 said...

This was a tasty entry ... feel like I get to see more texture to you.

David is new, and only time, only time.

Yes, you are MEANT to be here, surviving something like that. You will live and be that reason, eventually. You may do your job, without even knowing. Stay true to yourself, and it will happen.

Hope this isn't to 'spacey'. Have the best holiday!

Allison said...

I feel so bad for you sweetie. It is a miracle you are alive. I generally don't like tattoos but this had so much meaning for you and I'm glad you got it. Life has been difficut and I hope the road ahead will have so much triumph and love that you will know why you were spared that day. I hope you and your family have a wonderful holiday season. Luv ya!